random.: November 2004 Archives
... Halloween.
I had a bizarre dream last night that I was on some sort of "Fear Factor" type show and they were making me eat a plate full of cow brains and I just couldn't do it. I remember sitting there looking at this huge plate of cow brains and wondering how the hell I was supposed to put them in my mouth and actually chew them up and swallow. In my dream I had a complete breakdown... I started shaking and crying and gagging just thinking about it.
It was really very strange.... I wonder what I would do in real life if I was put in that position? (Not that I ever would be....)
Its 2:21 on a Monday night and I'm sitting here with thoughts racing through my head from something I witnessed this evening. I guess I didn't really witness the event, but I definitly saw the aftermath and I don't even know what to think. A lot of shit happens to a lot of people... I realize that. But some of this shit just seems so far removed.... and then you SEE it on one of your best friends and you wonder what the fuck is wrong with people?
I don't know whether to cry or go for a rabid middle of the night run or pour myself a large glass of wine ... Its now 2:24... maybe I should just go to bed.
All day yesterday and today I've felt tired and cranky and like there's a bit of a black cloud hanging over my head. I'm not quite sure what it is. Its nothing too terrible or worrisome, its just making life a little less fun at the moment. I think I'm mostly just behind on sleep and possibly still recovering from the Halloween festivities. School has become a little more intense lately with the handing out of our big writing assignment for the semester and the introduction of lightning bolt Socratic questioning in Property for the next couple weeks (thanks to the intricate and inherently confusing nature of estates).
This whole paper thing has me a bit flustered. I'm enjoying the research and think I'm finding good stuff and am getting a good grasp on what I want to say, but being able to put it all down in a coherent manner that gets my point across, using IRAC correctly, getting all my citations right... its a little overwhelming. Doesn't help that our professors have all talked up this assignment like its do or die and it counts as 50% of our grade...
Tomorrow I'm having a couple people over to drink wine and watch the election night coverage and act all intellectual-like. Should be a welcome break from the daily grind.
