law school: December 2004 Archives

Yesterday, I got my first law school grade. It was the class I thought I would do the worst in, and the test I left feeling the least confident about. The afternoon after the Property final I remember telling people with earnest "If I get a C in this class I will be happy"... Then yesterday, I found out I got a C+... but I wasn't happy. A C+, while certainly better than a C, is very frustrating... its so close to a grade that I would have been extremely happy with (especially after how that final went), but not quite close enough... and its even more frustrating because it was that goddamn multiple choice test.... so much of it was based on luck and not actual knowledge. I said I would be happy, but I wasn't.

Then this morning I got my grade in my legal research and writing class (another one that I was less than confident about): B. My grades on my papers in that class steadily improved throughout the semester, but I knew I would have to do well on the BigScary to get a B, and well, that must have been the case. I'm pretty satisfied with that.

For my other three classes, the waiting contintues....

Tomorrow is my last final and believe me, that thrills me to no end. I can't wait to do all the things I haven't been able to do for the past month (sleep, clean my apartment, go shopping [and not buy anything because I have no money], read non-casebooks, watch movies, hang out with my mom, snuggle with the boyfriend...), but there is a small feeling of sadness too. My routine these days has become very comfortable and while its a lot of work and very very exhausting at times, I think I might miss it. I'm pretty happy with how things have settled in place in my life at the moment. I'm not going to miss spending all day, every day (at least during finals time) studying, but I will miss seeing my friends on a daily basis. The law school very quickly became a comfortable place full of people that I would consider friends, and I really do enjoy being there.

Not that I'm complaining about these five glorious weeks off....

I should have never taken Saturday afternoon off from studying... inertia has set in and I can't for the life of me seem to get going again. I have one more final left. The end is so close I can taste it and yet every time I sit down with my Torts stuff I get the very distinct feeling that there is something else that needs to be done right now ... when in fact the only thing that needs to be done that urgently IS studying for Torts.

This post itself is of course a prime example of something that I am doing instead of studying for Torts (other examples include playing Spider Solitaire, doing laundry, taking a nap, washing my hair, scratching my foot, making hot chocolate, staring out the window....)

My neck hurts. My eyes are tired. My brain is much. My fingers are numb. And I'm desperatly hoping that all of this is an indicator that I have studied enough for civpro... but for some reason I doubt it.

I can't wait... I CAN'T WAIT ... for 5:00 tomorrow at which time I will spend an ENTIRE EVENING NOT STUDYING!!! Oh the joy!

Then it all begins again the next day... but nothing will be as bad as this civpro hell... or at least thats what I'm telling myself.