looking out the fishbowl.

i'm near the end and i don't have much time

Three finals down, one take home final due this afternoon, one due Friday, and then I am DONE for the summer!! Woohoo!!

Things are starting to fall into place for the summer. I've been in contact with the people I will be working for, and that has gotten me really excited! I need to go on a suit shopping spree next week seeing as I only have ONE business suit at the moment. I'm not sure how I feel about getting all suited up everyday ... maybe its because I've only worn a biz suit twice in my life, but I feel a little ridiculous in one. Like, oh look at me, trying to play lawyer! But I guess the time has sort of come for the "trying to play" lawyer to end, and the "starting to actually be" a lawyer to begin! I'm excited to see what working in the "real world" feels like ... how much time I feel like I have ... whether I'm less stressed out or more ... what its like to actually get a paycheck!

My last concern about the summer, up till yesterday, remained what to do with my beloved Maddie dog during the day. My parents generously offered to watch her everyday (have I mentioned that they adore her??), but taking her to their place would add another 20 minutes to my already way too long commute. Yesterday my upstairs neighbor (who has a beagle that Madison adores) came down and told me she got a new job here in town and would be home early in the afternoon everyday and that she would love to watch Maddie for me in the afternoons!!! Woohoo!!!!! Problem solved! I'll probably still take her to my parents' a couple times a week, but its nice to know that I don't have to! Remind me to do something nice for my neighbor!

Monday I had a small freak-out about my upcoming Ironman. I was feeling stressed out about finals and my job and training and excited about the possibility of trying some other kinds of races and it all just sort of exploded that day. I was having all these doubts about racing and then I found out how much my "sponsors" (my parents ;)) would be paying for the hotel alone in CDA. I feel SO SOOOOO guilty about it. I am not a cheap kid, and I'm not even a kid anymore! I spent a good part of the afternoon seriously considering withdrawing from the race. But then I realized that as unhappy as they were about the $$ (although they try desperately not to guilt trip me), they would be even MORE unhappy if I called and said "I'm not racing". I can't believe I even considered pulling out. I think it was a combination of the stress from everything that is going on, along with a healthy dose of nerves about the race itself, starting to get to me. Don't worry, I'm still in.

Enough procrastinating ... back to my final!