looking out the fishbowl.

technical difficulties, big disappointment, yoga and tea

Sorry I've been away so long. My computer up and died last week and I didn't even get to tell you all about how I was told by my professor that I smile too much and need to learn to be mean. Its a good story, but it will have to wait till next time I don't really have anything to post about.

Did I mention a few weeks ago that I had my heart totally set on getting into a particular clinic at the law school for next year? Well, I did indeed want more than anything to get accepted, and as luck or fate or karma would have it, I was rejected. Ouch. This news hit me like a ton of bricks this morning and I felt like I had in a way been dumped by my favorite professor. Rejection is a bitch no matter where it comes from. I spent the better part of the school day moping and pouting, despite the fact neither of these are especially endearing attributes. I was really really disappointed. Of course, I somewhat set myself up for this disappointment by trying to grab a much coveted slot in this clinic... there were far FAR more applicants than available positions. I figured it was worth a shot... I didn't know I'd end up being SO set on it.

Came home and continued pouting and moping on the couch for a little while and then hauled my butt out the door for a run. Returned home six miles later feeling a helluva lot better with a zillion of those cheezeball things people say to cheer you up running through my head.... everything happens for a reason... this too shall pass .... when one door closes another one opens ... and for whatever reason, those oft repeated lines made me feel better. Or maybe it was the endorphins.

Regardless, I decided to spend the rest of my night relaxing and thinking about anything other than school. I cleaned my apartment. I did yoga. I took a bath and went to the grocery store. And for the last hour I have been laying on my bed drinking peppermint tea and reading The Alchemist.

I'm feeling all relaxed and spacy and almost stoned at the moment... which is a far cry from how I felt this afternoon.

Tomorrow begins a new day....